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> Friday, April 08, 2005
7:51 PM

Sumtin relli stoopit happen..wad I blog is all gone...idiot..blogger sucks..k I m gonna start again le..veri sad now..

2dae is my mos un4gettable b'dae ever..i swear I will nv 4get in 4 da rest of my life..

die ah I 4get wad I type le...stoopit..relli fustrated..so 2dae kinda pissed cos of lit n I dunno wad mr white was tokin bout lor..den wen 2 chg durin recess...den head down 2 band rm..my face was lyk total buay song lorr..cos I hav so mani things 2 carry den I can't find huiru 2 get da hairnet n I hav prob tuckin in my shirt lor..den practice abit..can't pitch high f..stoopit lor ytd can pitch den 2dae can't...so after dat wen up to hall...played grand march den sch song..played quite ok la..budden sumtyms I jus drifted off..cc dat tym bar 38..my hands were sweatin lyk siao cos veri nervous..played n I totalli blew it up..wen too fast..stoopit..den bar 108 can't pitch..after dat wen down 2 band rm..dimissed 4 lunch..dun feel lyk eatin cos I played so badly den kinda depressed..wanted 2 cry mans..debbie came n said phyllis wanted 2 meet me...
me:4 wad??
debbie:tink is bout da performance..jus now u play veri bad..
After hearin dat I wen into total depression..den debbie say bout phyllis las tym pump dem 5 4 every mistake dey make n dey pump lyk 100..tot phyllis was gonna pumped me den veri scared..wen wif debbie 2 find phyllis n she got dat expressionless look..u noe lyk veri worried..wen dere den wenqi started sayin dat I play veri lan..kip zhao-sia-in..den she tried 2 lyk scold me or sumtin budden I laff cos c her face veri farni den she lyk said u play so bad liao sumore dare 2 laff..den i accidentally step down from da step n wenqi was lyk ahya she c liao la..n I was lyk askin wad lor..den she continue 2 say dat I veri lan budden got 1 burnt smell in da air..den phyllis say dat can smell da candle burnin liao le..turns out dey bought me a cake..my seniors,gladys,stella lim,joseph,minghui,huiying n janelle!!!(hope I nv left out anibody...haha debbie use phyllis 2 scare me 1st..haha..was relli relli touched lorr..tot dey dun bother..thnakew so much..i lurv u guys n I lurv my sect!!!u guys r shooo shweet..so dey sang happi b'dae n den took sum fotos..

After dat wen bac to band rm..practice n I could play bar 38 le...so happi..1st tym I was in tym with my sect..budden bar 108 still can't pitch..wen 2 5c 2 watch our recordin..den listen 2 our latest recordin..tink we played not bad leh..after band..we were told 2 form 3 rows outside..was tinkin die ah pumpin on my b'dae..budden kokwey,jasmine n yiyang nv pumped..dey tok..tokin turn 2 scoldin den scoldin turned into arguments..haiz..lots of things goin on..i nv seen kokwey so worked up b4..it's hard 2 b a leader I jus realize..mayb I dun wanna b'cum a leader le..if I ever do den everydae I will probably hav breakdowns..so after dimissal, packed my things n wen out of band rm..den realized dat left my shoe bag inside..wen in n saw jan cryin..mayb it's fated dat I will go bac into da band rm..consoled her..budden relli dunno wad else 2 say le..lots of ppl cry oso dunno y..sat dere n den after dey calm down abit..kokwey n jas say wanna sing b'dae song 4 me..den wenqi,Jolene,stella seet n sumore ppl sang b'dae song 4 me cryin..so sadd mans..almos cried myself..den jas said dat she srry dat she scolded every1 on my b'dae..den she said nxt yr will b beta la..so after awhile sum ppl start 2 lyk leave den I oso leave..met yongshan,jiahuan n huiying at mrt station outside..tok 2 dem n dey were eatin ice-cream..den da ice-cream guy overheard it's my b'dae den he gimme free ice-cream..so nicee...

K wanna say thx 2 dis ppl:
-monica(my mummi) n theo(my daughter)4 da dolphin necklace
-wanzhen( my aiai) n joan 4 da bear so nice 2 hug...hehe n I lyk da music card...so kookoo..
-josephine 4 da hp pouch
-rachel 4 da bookmarks
-gladys 4 da chocs
-wanxian 4 da sweets
-n las but not least my sect n all all those hu bought me da cake..thx a lot man..i m so touched..i lurv u all!!!!!

K la jus wanna say dat phs symphonic band will win silver de!!!we can do it!!!mus jia you k every1!!!5 more daes 2 syf...

just GO AWAY ;

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